who has time for umbrellas?

As much as I love the wonders it does for my hair, breathing this humidity is making it quite hard for me to sleep tonight. The rain has been nonstop for over 12 hours, with me and my Finnish friend Esin running though it without umbrellas. Who would've thought that within 30 minutes of sunshine could turn to clouds, could turn to rain, could turn to hot rain with heavy humidity? I should know, having lived in Utah...
I have always professed my love of this type of weather. With curly hair and dry skin, one could only ask for a slight amount of steam to accentuate what's lacking. I don't remember not being able to breath easy. But wait, no lotion and drinking more water, my hair growing almost twice as fast? How could I complain?
I have not found a job yet, and it's getting down to the wire. I have applied for dozens and dozens of jobs, still applying, and having interviews here and there. No luck yet. I'm starting to get that thing called depression. Thinking of my options, and trying to be realistic, it seems as if I might be heading back to the states if something doesn't turn up soon. My heart drops and my eyes start to fill with tears. It's not supposed to be this way!! I guess life isn't all what you expect it to be.
Yes, we have talked about getting married. And yes I feel in my heart it's right. But, hello, know each other for one year, date for 5 months, and live together for 3? (all within this year period of time..) No way, we need much more time. No reason to rush, and plenty of reasons to set ourselves up for a successful marriage and a life of happiness. However, the idea of going back to long distance, it kills me, and he's not smiling either...